Sleep? What is sleep? Oh yeah, it’s that thing I
never was good at. Oh, don't get me wrong; I can sleep for hours! Just it’s not
exactly helpful when I don't actually fall asleep until around 6am. Anyone can
tell you that you need a good night’s rest to be at your best. Having a regular
sleep schedule is super important to stay on top. Sleep reduces stress,
improves memory and can even help you lose weight! And of course I am
absolutely horrible at it. I always have been. Ever since I was little I had
trouble sleeping at night.
It is common knowledge that the brain is super
active during sleep which is why we dream. Well it seems mine goes into overdrive
more than usual when I sleep. And most people have 4 to 6 dreams a night and won’t
remember most of them; while I will have anywhere between 10 and 15! And more
often than not I can recount them all crystal clearly when I wake up. Well for
a few hours anyway and I try to always write the good ones down. And then there
are some that I will never forget for the rest of my life. Like “Memuary the 82nd
, year 2001” or thousands of my mom’s dog Cocoa running around the house
but they are all about
the size of an oompa loompa. Don’t ask. I
also have premonitions in my dreams. They can transpire the next day
but usually it is sometime in the next month or so and when they do, the déjà
vu gives me headaches. I have had them since I was a child and it runs in my
family but I will touch more on this later.
Either way, the whole dream thing can’t
actually happen if I don’t go to bed first! When I was little the rule was that
if I couldn’t sleep I could do whatever I wanted as long as I stayed in my room
and tried not to wake anyone. The rule actually came to be because I used to
clean at night to keep myself busy and my mom actually had to confiscate the vacuum
from me and hide it and looking back I think it’s hilarious. In the end my mom
got
me a TV and I would watch cartoon network until adult swim came on and that
is how I discovered my favorite anime InuYasha. Now that I am much older I realize
the fanfiction is much better though *wink wink*
ANYWAY!!!! As I got older and I
started school earlier I learned how to run on only about 3 hours of sleep regularly.
I would usually not fall asleep until around 3ish and mom took the TV away so I
had to find other things to do. That was a great creative period for me. I realized
the less sleep I was
running on, the better my art was. There are quite a few
water color splatters on the ceiling in my old room from late night paint
sessions. And quite a few epic pairs of painted jeans too. (I wore a pair in my
senior photos XD you can see them on my About Me post.)
And the biggest problem
with only getting 3 hours of sleep and running to school all week was the usual
Friday crash. I would come home, usually fall asleep around 10 and not crawl
out of bed till Saturday night or even Sunday morning. About three times I even
slept till Sunday Moring, waking up around 4am, and then I would proceed to eat
everything in the house because I would wake up starving.
In high school me and
mom fought about me being up all night my laptop (by then I discovered InuYasha
fanfiction *teehee*) so she had a rule that I had to keep it in the kitchen in
its case at night. It didn’t last a single night. I used to sneak out of my
room and swap the laptop out with textbook so it looked like it was still in
the case and then I would switch it back before I crashed. I actually just told
her that I would swap them just the other
day and she laughed (Couldn’t really
ground me anymore now could she? HA!)
And all through high school and up until
this past April, one of the major reasons I can’t fall asleep is because I would
be in too much pain. My back flares up at night, especially when it rains. And since
surgery, I have had severe sciatica and it’s just as bad as the herniated disks
were. And since steroid injections (which didn’t help) my right hip has been
killing me so throw that in the mix. I’m just a giant bundle of pain and
problems, don’t mind me.
I have been between colleges and sadly I am
currently between jobs because of surgery and recovery, my sleep schedule is surprisingly
tame. I sleep from about 4am to about noon now so I’m getting my 8 hours, but
the timing makes it unhealthy still. And Chris works nights so when he gets
home at around 7:30 I usually wake up for a bit before falling asleep again. But
some nights I don’t fall asleep till he gets home. And for the last month or so
I actually have been having a few
nights when I don’t sleep at all and it
really throws me off. These days my biggest problems are pain and my infinite access
to the internet and all of its glorious wonders like fanfiction.net, Facebook, Netflix,
Hulu and mangareader.net and there is no one to take it away from me here.
I’ve
tried to read a regular book instead of looking at a screen all night but I end
up just reading till the sun comes up anyway. I have a small collection of
manga and a couple of books I *cough cough* “borrowed” from the library back
home that just never went back…..oops? I just get super wrapped up when reading
it can be hours before I put it down.
Not gona lie sometimes if no one is
around I won’t even take a break to use the bathroom, I’ll just take it in with
me.
Another problem is that with my late night history, I feel like a wimp if I
get sleepy before at least 2am. I guess it’s turned into a pride thing. I feel
like such a wimp when I tell friends about me never sleeping till really late
and then at sleepovers I crash before them. It isn’t a competition but I guess
deep down I take a little pride in my sleep patterns? Heaven, hell
and
everything in between know my sleep patterns are far from healthy but I still
think that way sometimes….im just a weirdo. So I am close to breaking 1,200
words for this post so I better stop now. Good night everyone! Or good morning?
Who knows? =D
And no, I'm not talking about teeth. Decided to paint my nails last night just to have something to do and I chose to use my "Tokyo Pearl" nail polish from Sinful Colors. Its a cute polish but there is something about it that it just doesn't look good with only one coat if its on a real nail. (It looks great on acrylics though.) And if you brush on more than one coat on real nails, then the polish just slides off whole the next day. I got it for a cosplay I will be doing in the future but as of right now I just apply it for the fun of painting my nails but without any of the commitment.
